Sunday, November 25, 2007

tdy, right after work... i dont know why but i suddenly had a sudden urge to try the rubik's cube. i'm wierd.... i know. so... i decided to get it. since it cost about 10 bucks i told myself why not. so.... on my way home i dropped by toys r us at tampines mall and got myself a 3 x 3 cube.




and... as soon as i settled down at home i begin playing with it. and its fun!! really! those who've not tried it i would really advice you to go and try. there's this thrill/challenge while trying to solve it. and definately, its not easy. so far, i only manage to arrange one side in order. i'm stuck at step 4 out of 8. so... you can say i'm halfway there.



anyway... moving on. remember the last post i mention about my performance at Jam & Hop nite. well, right after that performance, the next day, i kinda notice that my friendster profile views suddenly had a slight increase all of the sudden. haha!! and guess what... they are ppl from Jam and Hop. lol! they actually had the time to search for us on friendster. goodness.. seems like baracuda has a trail of fans already. anyway... they told me that they really enjoyed our performance that nite. certainly nice to hear that.

10:03 PM

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Rocking it out on stage!!

First and foremost, i'll like to say that yesterday was super awesome!! yup yup. the performance for Jam and Hop in Ngee Ann was madness! we were the event opener and my god, were the crowd hyped up. those 'children' really know how to party! we definately opened the event with a bang and i bet the people from Red Camp loved us. thats exactly the kind of crowd i'll love to perform to for every of our performances. people were dancing, moving, clapping and smiling everywhere i looked. and and and.... i dunno why but... there's these two girls in the front row that really caught my eye. and i'm impressed with them.... they can really shake it good. haha!! i really felt like a rock star on that night. thanks to the people at Jam and Hop, to the rest of the baracudas for an rocking performance, and esp to those two girls in green at the front row. lol!

i really wished i could stay for the rest of the event. it was like a mini zouk out in the convention centre with famous bands performing, loud music, zouk's resident DJ spinning it out and not forgetting awesome ppl all around. but.... too bad i had to rush down to meet my friends for the usual friday chill out session.

oh ya... talking about friday. i just wanna highlight something. and i really hope singapore would actually do something about it. well, you guys know that my phone is temporarily out of order right. so... yesterday, i really needed a public phone. and guess what, i was at bugis and i spent almost 30 mins searching for a decent working public phone. i was like cursing and swearing deep inside as i swarmed the streets of bugis looking for a freaking phone. yes, i know we are in an era of mobile and all those advance technology but.... dont you think that sometimes when an innocent soul finally comes back down to earth, he/she will need the services of a public phone once again? please... can the govt of singapore actually add more public phones around or atleast do some servicing to the ones that are present. this advice coming from a first hand experience.

moving on.... well, i'm freaking tired. before updating my own blog, i was planning out stuff for baracuda. i'am in-charge of their performances... and well, i figured out that its actually not an easy job. considering the busy month of december.... where all performances will be coming in and etc., i really have to step up my game. contacting here and there(without a handphone)... sending out emails, thinking of the members, working with the school, updating the members and etc. and i thought once i step down as ngee ann softball president things will be less stressful. seems i'm wrong. well, i guess its just me.... my nature of just taking that leadership position. the need to lead. i just hope i wont neglect my softball club too much cause they still need my guidance.

anyway... baracudas will be having some major performances. especially the one coming up at Plaza Singapura. check us out and find out more on: www.baracudabatucada.blogspot.com

i guess i should be sleeping soon. i'll be working tommorrow at ritz. yup yup.... 7am-3pm. i'm freaking exhausted and down with a lil flu but.... what can i do. i just need to work hard now. need that extra cash to support myself. i need some cash to pay for my driving. haha!



ps. all seems well on the outside, but no one will see all the scars within, all the tears i've dripped.

11:33 PM

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Get high and leave your worries behind

alright... i guess this week has been a decent one i shall say. work, baracuda, driving and at the end of all that a well deserved rest. but still.... the resting part is still kinda lacking. wondering why? but well.... i guess i'll just have to endure.

issues at home... i guess its still the same old story. i'm living my own life. what is parents to me? its definately not in my dictionary. well, u can call me an unfilial son... but, you don't know the real truth. i wash my clothes, fold my clothes, find my own food, clean my room.... practically, i'm living off my ownself. hmmmmm... i guess this practically explains why my whole life is pretty much messed up.

money matters... i guess i pretty much have it in hand already. no more splurging. i'm kinda saving from whatever i get each day. and that could range between $2 to $5. not bad for a start... but still... i'm waiting for my pay to settle my outstanding bill. well.... seems like i have to cut down on my 'fancy' lifestyle. hmmmm..... i will survive.

as for my driving... its going very well. but... sadly my last lesson would be on thursday. well, thats untill i find enough money to book for the next few lessons. and i'm very sure that long gap inbetween will have a negative effect. i can just hope its not so bad. hmmmmm... most likely i'll be going on to the roads once my PDL is secured. circuit is getting boring. my last instructor said my driving was firm and is very much ready for the roads. haha! encouraging indeed. so... you drivers out there, Farhan is gonna storm the roads of Eunos soon. Be prepared. lol!

hmmmm.... recently i got news that kinda affected me to an extent. and its not the best of news. i came to learn that zin thet was hospitalized. i was shocked together with some mixed feelings of worry and guilt. well, just a rough background, i havent been talking to zin thet for about a few weeks. as usual she kinda just disappeared just like that. and before that, i already could sense that there was something troubling her. i guess stuff between she and her father, work, school, friends and etc. and... i did offer my help. i did lend a listening ear and gave my advice. but... i knew she didnt truly open up to me. instead she kept it all inside of her. and i guess... all that lead to the situation now. hmmmm.... well, thats the past and there's nothing that we can do now. but... instead i believe we can always work on the future.

once i heard of the news i very much wanted to visit her but.... as per her friend, i was not suppose to know and its better that i dont visit her yet. hmmmm.... that certainly shows the stubborn part of zin thet. well, i did told her friend to send her my regards and best wishes. and also perhaps if i could come down and visit her soon. i just need to see her to know whats happening. i hate seeing my friends suffer. that girl needs help.... and i wanna offer her mine.

and finally, to end this off....
after having all these worries in my mind... sometimes i feel that you've got to let loose and brush them aside. like what the title states, "Get high and leave your worries behind." it's so true.... sometimes its no point brooding over it. but then again.... get high doesnt mean you have to do drugs or stuff like that. what i mean here is just enjoy yourself. for me... i get high with music. and i'm lucky i have my band to get high with. like yesterday during practice... i just decided to let go of everything and groove and go crazy. and it certainly makes me happy seeing smiles on other ppls faces. takes my mind of the evil worries i have.

i shall end with.... "IF LIFE GETS HARD, FUCK IT! AND YOU'LL FIND PLEASURE."
sorry for the usage of inappropriate language here... but i feel it really explains well.

3:00 PM

Saturday, November 17, 2007

Hanz Code: 9 13'9'19'19 25'15'21

haha!! try to decipher that code...





well.... if you did then... good for you. smart boy/girl. i dont think its that hard right. well. if u had succesfully figure it out, i'm sure this post will be much clearer to you.

anyway... let me start off with just saying that this week is tough for me. well, as some of you guys know.... financially, i've not been very stable for this week. next.... physically, i'm alil worn out. and mentally, i've been very disturbed. hmmmm... and the best part is.... i dunno how to explain why i'm feeling this way. everything just seems so wrong for me.

perhaps its because i'm always seeing things on a negative point of view. but then again... i cant help it. will someone help me??



anyway... moving on. tdy while i was on the way home from a performance at clarke quay, the trip on the train was made kinda 'entertaining' to a certain extent. when i boarded the packed train at cityhall, the first thing that kinda caught my eye was this couple at the opposite door. well.... actually, to be honest, the girl caught my eye first. but then again.... i was only attracted cause i was wondering if she was chinese of malay. apparently, she was with a malay guy. and i was 85 percent sure that she's chinese. and well... that made me paid so much attention to that couple.

basically.... to cut the long story short.... the girl seems very happy with that guy. and they look very sweet together. but but but.... the funny thing is... they are abit... too in love. as in..... u know... the public show of affection thingy. well.... i'm not saying its wrong or anything but sometimes, abit too much of everything is just not good. well... for the eyes of the public atleast. and especially to the eyes of a lonely man like me. its like.... every 3 stations they'll be giving each other pecks on the lips. and then... u know.. all the things couples do. and somehow.... as i was noticing the girl's facial expression.... she was kinda enjoying all the 'loving' that was received. hmmmmm...... well, the whole 'show' was very interesting to watch. but then again... depressing too.

the girl somehow reminded me of annabel. the hair, the body, the way she dressed and the smile on her face.... even the way she walked kinda looked similar. but then again... there can only be one annabel. so... well, nothing can compare.

alright... i guess thats about it for now....

anyway... bad news, my baby cuica is 'injured'. first the skin had a lil tore and then tdy while perfomance and after swithcing skins, the stick broke. how wonderful is that... considering performance at plaza singapura is around the corner. haiz... i really hope they have stock in singapore. even if they dont i hope they can bring it over in 2 weeks time.

tmr driving in the morning!!! yay! excited! i'm improving... hardly no more stalls, no mounting of kerb, smooth acceleration, nice braking.... hmmmm... keep it up!! hopefully i'll be driving on the roads tmr.

11:46 PM

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Time now is 1.47am... and i'm still awake.

well, i've tried going to bed. i was lying down since 12.33am but after tossing and turning, i just can't fall asleep. perhaps i'm thinking too much.

between that period, i dont know why but i've listen to track 7 and track 5 of jay chou's latest album about 10 times. just feeling emo i guess. so decided to put the tracks on repeat.



oh ya... did i mention i have to wake up at 6am. well.... time check.... 1.51am. it leaves me with about 4 hrs of sleep. that is if i can fall asleep soon.

okay... i guess thats about it. i'll try going to bed again.



(ps. the joy ride has ended.)

1:46 AM

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

I owe Singtel!!

alright alright.... from the title itself i believe its self explanatory. i owe singtel cause i have yet to pay my outstanding bills. and guess what..... they cut my line without any advance warning. this morning when i really needed the phone to make an important call, i just cant seem to. well.. i thought i had a problem with my phone at first but.... well, guess singtel just got pissed with me for owing them money. so.... i kinda suffered for the whole day. it feels that i'm totally disconnected from the world. and the feeling really sucks. but... however, somehow i'm still able to receive calls and smses. so... atleast its not that bad.

hmmmm... i believe tmr will be a much more worse partly because today i spent my whole day in sembawang air base. hence, it equals to me not having my phone around because of declaration. tmr, it'll be a busy busy day with performance at school in the morning and then back to work after lunch. i bet i'll have a hard time contacting people.

so... i guess till i'm able to pay my bills. i'll be practically be cutted off from the mobile world for some time. so... yeah... i guess i'm gonna suffer for the next few weeks.

hence.... after doing some reflecting. i realised... partly its my fault. the thought of saving suddenly really hit me hard. it kinda woke me up. i really have to cherish my money more. first of all.... i dont get alot of it. next... money isnt easy to get. somehow.... i just told myself. "Farhan, you've got to start saving and not be such a spendthrift." which is very true in life. saving is important. maybe not only to pay my bills but.... think of the future. it never hurts to have extra. better then not having any at all.... leaving me in the situation i'm currently in. so... hence, from today onwards. i've decided to put aside money every single day for saving. and as for next month's pay.... i'll try to put aside $50 minimum for saving. people... you'll all be my witness. this is a 'contract'. i guess certain things on my wishlist i have to sacrifice. i'll have to think of the needs before my wants. so.... bubbye to my FCUK cardigan. =(

anyway... moving on. i was watching the drama on channel 8 at 9. i kind of stumbled upon it. and as i was watching, something struck me and made me ponder on it "Cherish yourself before you can cherish others." do you think you agree with that statement?? well... its kinda hard to answer that. to a certain extent its true but then again... its questionable. it actually depends on who that "others" is. for me.... if that "others" is someone special... then... i guess i'll put her before myself. cause... partly maybe there's nothing much more important to me then her. for other people out there, it can be diff for them. hmmmm... and the show ended in a very sweet way. i wish i could sing and serenade the one i love.

alright.... i guess thats about it for now. maybe i'll blog more often cause i guess here's my only way of communication to the rest of the world. people... give me a call... i'm lonely!!

11:01 PM

Monday, November 5, 2007

Nice wrap up for the week

(there's something about this picture that i like. i guess its her eyes)

(hehe!! happy)

anyway... moving on, friday... as usual, back to work till 12 and then to school for class till 5. as usual all we had to do for that class was tutorial and then we could leave. so.... yeah... thats about it for friday. i guess thats the boring part. the fun only starts after 5. where me and my classmates would just hang out together. actually, the plan is clubbing at zouk but ofcoz that would only be at 11pm. before clubbing, my evening was spent at bugis. yup yup.... you heard me right. bugis... a place not very frequented by me but... now.... i'm begining to like it. its been ages since i last step in there. and many many changes has been done. for example the foodcourt. haha!! anyway.... yeah... i familiarised myself ard bugis and then later on in the evening, i just sit and chilled at startbucks (again), over a cup of hazelnut hot chocolate, just to let time pass.

well... the nite only begun at about 11.30 when the group of us reached zouk. and as soon as i stepped into zouk... i was very much ready to party! haha!!! yup yup... i can be a bad boy at times. but most of the times i'm an angel. lol! so.... once we got our drinks, warmed up abit... the dancing then begun. and yes... it was happening. erm... maybe a lil bit too happening for my liking. partly maybe cause it was too crowded considering the small dance floor at Phuture. and not only that... there were way too much guys around. and to be exact... most of them horny NS guys. 75% percent of the time you'll be rubbing skin agains a guy. and it irritates me to the max. friday nite at zouk is definately not for me. but still i had fun with my friends... watching ppl dance... and ofcoz... i have to be honest... there were nice girls around to ogle at. haha! but... overall i'll give my experience at zouk a 6.5/10. haha! ofcoz, by the end of the nite.... or shld i say morning, we were all kinda tipsy and high all thanks to the gin tonic and bourbon coke. plus... our ears were buzzing all thanks to the pounding music at the dance floor.

so.... as soon as i reached home. the bed was calling out for me. and i answered its call. all the way up till 5pm, saturday afternoon. haha! and when i woke up... somehow i still have not recovered. was still kinda lazy. and my biological clock was kinda messed up abit. so... i just spend the evening slacking at home untill about later on in the evening where i met up with Annabel for a drink at Watercross. hmmmm... and yes..... you guys must be thinking.... drink again?! well... i'm alright. dont worry. i can handle my liquor. lol!! so.. under the beautiful night sky, we sit and chat, enjoying each other's company. and... somehow i was all giggly that nite. what can i say... she makes me happy. i actually really wanted to try the deck chairs but too bad... none was available. perhaps next time??

and today.... i woke up at about 9.30am for my driving. yup yup!! my first driving practical. i was kinda excited about it. but definately not nervous. i really didnt expect myself to be driving on the first lesson. i thought it'll just be the normal familiarisation stuff and etc. well, i guess i'm fast. haha! so ya... my instructor allowed me to take the wheel. starting with moving off and then accelerating and then reversing. and once i was familiar... to the circuit i went. a few rounds negotiation ard small bends and accelerating and stopping. and i have to say.... it was so super fun to be driving. its like... handling a poweful machine. the feeling is so good. but... what was wierd was that, i wasnt nervous or scared. shld i be?? hmmmm.... i simply cant wait for my next lesson. whee~~!

12:37 AM

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Farhan lives a life of ups and downs. Thru his eyes he sees the world from a different point of view. One day he'll conquer the world, and all the people will be his commandments. Heavy is his heart, as love never seems to be on his side. But on one faithful day, he found the love of his life. The lady whom he promises to love, cherish and care all his life. The one whom he will sacrifice himself for. The only one whom he will say... I LOVE YOU. Farhan is the boy who flies paper planes. Wishing that one day, he'll fly one that is 100 thousand times bigger that the one in his hand now. Hopefully his dreams and aspirations will come true... We'll pray for him. Till then, Farhan shall lead a normal life of a boy thru his teens. This is the story of his life.

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