Saturday, November 29, 2008

MP pop oh!!

The trainee phase has officially ended... but, its not all a good thing. haha!

Posted to LECC. One of my first choice of posting. But nothing beats being in the Special Security Force. How i wish i was there... well, i guess its just not meant to be.

hmmm.... so far, life in LECC has been alright. Will be staying out till this coming thursday. This is the period where i start to get used to the new system and the new structure of the company. make new friends.... get to know the commanders and etc.

one thing saddens me as the first few days pass....
and that is... there will be no intake for SPDS. my dream platoon. there goes my hopes of performing in front of ppl with my rifle, doing the drills, sweating it out and losing pound off my body during prac and etc. why why why??? why my batch?

i guess.... like what my commander told me. just do my best and prove myself in any platoon i end up to. i'll only find out i guess ard 2 weeks later. wish me the best!!

anyway.... before i end my entry, i wanna thank my parents and fidah for being there on my passing out parade. it makes me more pround to be on the parade square even more. i'll update the pics here as soon as i get them.

6:45 PM

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Its Over!

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The fairy tale has ended.
This time... there's no happily ever after.
all the best!
thanks for the memories!
goodbye!

5:56 PM

Sunday, November 9, 2008

16 days to my 2nd POP!!

In other words... 16 days to becoming an official Military Policeman.
I have to say that i'am alil excited as the day draws nearer.

On 25th Nov 2008, I'll be dawning my customised MP no. 3 uniform together with the helmet. Looking smart and proud. Hopefully my loved ones will be able to make it.

The orange/black armband means alot to every MP.

It's also a sign of power and authority... which in hand means alot of responsibility.
As the pop date is nearing..... i'm wishing for a few things. It may or may not come true... but... atleast i know i tried.

One: Platoon Best
Two: Posted to LECC (Silent Precision Drill Squad or Ceremonial Guards)
Three: Posted to Special Investigation Branch
Four: Posted as an instructor in Military Police Training School

only 4 wishes... thats very minimal. haha! hopefully atleast one will come true.

(Ceremonial Guards)

(Silent Precision Drill Squad outside Istana during COG)

3:02 PM

A tribute to my grandma

Date: 041108
Time: 1615 hrs

We all knew that the day will come. It was just a question of when.
But still... when it was time, it still came as a shock to me.

Coincidentally... the night before, i thought of her for a second. Just wondering how she was doing. Never did i expect it to be a sign.

At the time the news was told to me... i had just finished my P226 technical handling lesson. All ready to change and head for dinner.... Untill, one of admin guys came up to me and broke the news.

If i could remember how my reaction was.... i think i just kept quiet for about 3 seconds. And then i ask the time he received it and what i had to do next. All that was in my mind was to get out of camp and rush down to my late grandma's house. So.... immediately i spoke to my platoon commander, my sargent.... and most of the admin procedures were done in about 15 mins. By 5.00pm i was out of the camp.

I wont deny the fact that i shed tears. It took some time for it to seeped thru. But when it finally did.... it was bad. I tried my best to control... but involuntarily, it just came down my face. I have to thank my mates who tried to console me and supported me. I knew i had to be strong.... But... i guess it was just too heart wrenching.

As i was on the journey home.... i felt all alone. I wish i had somebody by myside. During the bus ride... memories of the past just run thru my mind. I was reminded of how my grandma took care of me while i was young. The days where i would stay over at her place while my parents were working. Those days where she'll play with me, feed me and at times plant kisses on my then chubby cheeks. I still can remember clearly how it was last time. oh.... and hari raya was the best time of the year... cause granny will also give the most money! =) At that time... somehow i realised that i took all of it for granted. I guess.... its only when u lose something then you'll realise its worth.

Even till the last final moments.... i regretted something. I regretted not giving her the last kiss while she was on the bed. I didnt even touched her for the last time. I dont know why.... at that time i was reluctant. Or maybe i was just scared. once the burial was done.... in the bus.... i shed tears regretting not doing it. I'll never forgive myself for that.

Suddenly.... from that day onwards. I finally realised the reality of life. How it feels to lose somebody so close to u. The death of my grandma was my first. I lost my other grandparents even before i was born.

Somehow... this experience made me think. What if it happens to someone else?? What if my parents had to go?? I dont think there's anything i can do.... but to just cherish them now.

I'll miss my granny.
I never got the chance.... but.... i just want to thank her for everything that she's given me.
Hopefully life's better for her now.

2:24 PM