Sunday, October 14, 2007

Hari Raya 2007

hmmmm.... let me see. i guess this weekend is a lil bit more special as compared to the rest. well, basically its because it Hari Raya. but then again... some of u know i'm not so into all these stuff. for me, i see it as a chance to get extra cash from relatives and also ofcoz just to spend that extra time and meet up with cousins, aunties and uncles etc. oh ya!!! and the food. lol! other then that.. i dont see the big "hoo haa" about it. i noticed this year.... i'm getting so much lesser green packets as compared to other years. and that sucks. i'm ONLY 19... and i havent started working. =( oh ya.. and granny.... saw her yesterday. and she doesn look good. i'm scared... maybe her time is about to come. i'll certainly gonna miss how she took care of me when i was small. if this year is gonna be her last hari raya... the kiss she gave on my cheek would be the last one. i really hope everything will be alright. maybe a miracle. i just havent lost anyone dear to me before.

talking about losing someone.... on thursday i've got news from my sec sch mate about the death of another friend on tuesday. and it really shook me hard. at first i kinda didnt believe it. but... once i saw the news article online, i just took a moment to think of the memories i had of him. well, i was never really close to him but still during my sec one and two years we hang out together. those were the days i would play soccer under the void deck and all. he never would speak much. he's a man of very lil words. he would just usually smile though. and i'll always remember him as a great soccer player. basically, he's an all round nice guy. its sad to see him leave this world. what more.... 4 days before hari raya. it must be very hard for the family to accept it. i read the article and the mum stated that he actually had requested for a black "baju kurong" this year. the mum already bought it but never had the chance to pass it to him.

it kinda made me realise that anyone can leave this world anytime. be it me, my friends or maybe even you reading this rite now. everyone is vulnerable. and there's no way one can run. i and i guess death is scary. i wonder how it'll be if my time comes. will i be missed? will i leave this world making my mark, leaving my dream? will i leave a legacy? i wont know. but if i were to leave just like that.... i hope people will forgive me for whatever wrong i've done. and to my friends, i'll miss you guys.

anyway... moving on to the lighter side of life. on friday softball club had a bbq. and i must say i had fun. and the food was alright lah. the most important thing is that i get to see the club getting together and working. plus... to meet up with the seniors and all. and... i dunno why but.... i was high. haha! just a note... there was no alcohol around.

and finally, some of u maybe asking why i choose this background song. well, i guess i just wanna be happy and stop all the emo shit for a moment. plus... i find this song damn sexy.

okay... i guess thats about it for now. i'll update soon

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