Thursday, January 31, 2008
Things happen for a reason...
i believe in the title very much... there's a reason behind everything that happens.but... the only question i have with me right now is why?? what is the reason?? where can i find it??
why do WE quarrel?
why do WE feel upset?
why do WE feel jealous?
why do WE always have a million thoughts and feelings that bombard our minds?
i need an answer fast...
sometimes...
efforts goes wasted...
sacrifice not appreciated...
good things go unseen...
i know love is suppose to be sweet...
but... i feel that there's a heavier weight of bitter than sweet
once scarred...
the heart will never be the same.
i don't know how to recover...
i know... deep inside, i dont wanna lose you.
i love you.
but... why is all these happening??
isit suppose to make us stronger?
i hope it will....
i hope... the promises wont be broken
hopefully, after the storm... there will be a rainbow
10:14 AM
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Does anyone care??
well.... the answer to the above qns is NO. yup... atleast thats what i think. hmmmmm.... wondering why i say that?before i go into that, i have to mention that my leg condition is not getting any better. tdy it just seems to get worse. I'm actually feeling that difficulty to walk yet again. that old familiar feeling... the time when i had to suffer on crutches. and yes, moving around is difficult. what more climbing up and down the stairs at work. not only that, after work at 5 i still had to head down to ritz for another session of work.
honestly, i'm damn tired. i'm sick. i'm in pain. i'm hungry. but.... DOES ANYONE CARE?
i'm upset... as i'm writing this, i'm in ritz. and my girlfriend is sitting beside me. but.. does she even bother? does she show concern? does she care? well, all i got is ATTITUDE. thanks... that's exactly what someone who is in pain needs.
i came over..... and atleast i expect a smile or a welcome. or maybe even a "how are you?"
but no. non of it.
ya, so what if my leg hurts... it doesnt matter to you rite.
do you know how worried i'am. my leg is suppose to heal by now. instead its coming back. do you know how freaking scared i'am.
imagine the cost i have to bare just for the check ups alone.
no.... my parents arent helping. and so arent you by doing this.
i feel like shit now....
and all i need was a lil bit LOVE from you
8:44 PM
Point to take note.
How to Escape a Spat with your Significant Other??When we’re in a ‘flooded’ emotional state, access to the part of the brain where logical thinking resides is inhibited, and IQ drops noticeably. This is when we say things we wish we could take back. So call a time-out. Typically, your logic will return in about 20 minutes, at which point you can resume the discussion in a productive way.
4:32 PM
Saturday, January 19, 2008
My Dream
1:15 PM
Monday, January 14, 2008
It's back again...
well... what's back? i bet u guys must be wondering.hmmm.... its not one but two...
lets see...
first of all... i guess my 'decade' long cough is on again. just when i thought it was better. this time... i guess its not that bad. but.... its damn irritating. the cough that i'm having now are more like the 'difficulty to breath' type. those asthma kinda feeling. well, maybe its because i did not go to the doctor for a follow up check up. she did mention it could be a mild asthma thingy. my medicine is almost finishing too. what should i do?
next... remember the terrible injury i had. the one involving my knee. well, guess what. it's starting to hurt back again. yup.... and i've not even been involve in any 'hard work'. i've not been going to the gym... and neither have i done any sports activities or trainings. i guess... the only thing involving my legs would be walking. dont tell me i need further analysis from the doctor. i thought i was ok already. matter of fact i should be healing already. the doctor gave me 6 months and its due on feb. so... i shld be getting better not feeling the pain again. i dont want to be a regular at the hosp. i'm sick of it. i just hope it'll be better soon. NS is coming. i cant afford to have this injury haunting me.
3:34 PM
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Stressful day
okay... work is gonna end in about 10 more minutes. i can actually leave the office now but then let me just finish this post.today was stressful... it started off wrong as i was late AGAIN. then, as soon as i step into the office my manager called me in for a meeting. and i knew it wasnt the bestest news.
well, it turned out that i have another 'project' under my sleeve. like as if all the workload i'm having now is not enough. damn it! oh... and notice the how i describe the 'project'. well, everyone knows its bullshit. they are just lazy to do it on their own and since attachment students are here... why not they name it PROJECT. can they give us something better to do. i'm here to learnt not to do shit work.
whatever lah.... i'm already stressed out enough with the sch projects, reports, test, in hand work projects and all the daily office task. what more... i have my life to settle too. i need a break!
oklah... i guess thats about it. i need to go now. i guess overall i still manage to complete whatever i had to tdy. all thanks to proper planning. but then... i'm so super shagged now.
i still have to head down to sch for a meeting.
bye!
4:51 PM
Lessons on love
It's a been a journey of ups and downs ... so far these 2 weeks has been bitter sweet.People say love is happiness and every other things nice. But i beg to differ.
Its not only about the laughters, the smiles, the sweet lil things, the hugs, the kisses..... Love is more than that.
I guess love includes tears, heartaches, frustrations, sadness, jealousy...
And all these makes the feeling of love complete.
Honestly, for me it did not go all smooth... There are days when i feel so down. There are days when i feel like i'm on top of the world. But i think the most important factor here is how i make do with it. How i learn from the lessons of love and how i change and improve.
If one never suffers from hardship.... i guess he/she will never learn.
And in my case... all these lil unhappiness, heartaches and etc. simply makes the relationship stronger.
I love her.... yes i do.
All i ever hope for is for this to last.
ps. Fidah, its been tough on you lately. I understand. I hope all will be well. I wanna see u smile once again. You know i'll always be here for u whenever u need me. I'll always be supporting u no matter what. Girl, i dont wanna lose you....
12:09 AM
Saturday, January 5, 2008
Hanhan steps into the arcade!
alright... ladies and gentleman!!!officially... 4 January 2007, farhan steps into the arcade and play. after years of not engaging in such activities, it actually feels kinda fun. well, esp when you have someone special beside you. and that special someone is no other then my baby girl.
its another day out for as.... and surprisingly we spent the whole day at AMK hub. well, we WINDOW SHOPPED for the first half of the day. had a nice lunch... then, the fun comes in.
honestly when she brought me into the arcade, i thought she would just wanna look around. never did i expect her to pull me in and ended up playing afew games. well..... it started off with daytona cause i wanted my revenge on her. cause she beat me the other time during the chalet. then... moved on to another racing game. i guess we have something for racing cars. well... moving on, we played the old sch basketball throwing thingy.... fun fun fun!! (note: short ppl will have difficulties playing this game) hehe! next yet another unexpected event happened. my baby girl actually loves to play the 'dancing dancing' thingy. haha! its damn funny seeing her stumbling her way thru the game. super cute!! damn!! i should have taken a picture of her. lol! oh ya!! and as for myself. i actually played the DRUM MACHING THINGY!! omg!! i actually never believed in it. as in... being a real drummer. i kinda prefer the real thing. but.... seems like i've been proven wrong. that game is fun!! but then.. a lil boring cause it was a lil too easy. hmmmm... next time i shall try sumthing harder. wheee!!!!
okay okay... overall, i can say i spent a great day with my girl. it ended with a nice movie... I'am Legend. which is not such a bad movie. i'll give it 3 out of 5 POPCORNS.
12:11 AM
Friday, January 4, 2008
A dedication to my girl....
Her
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------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Night Out (3/Jan/2008)
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Flowery New Year Surprise For Her
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------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Ang Mo Kio Hub
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LOVE
YOU
❤
11:11 PM
Thursday, January 3, 2008
INTERIM REPORT COMPLETED!!!!
(Interim Report Extract) yes!!!!!
finally!!! i have completed my interim report for my attachment.
omg! i feel so relieve. one burden is off.... but then its not for long.
i realised its actually not that difficult. the problem was that i loved to procrastinate. and hence, resulted in my report being almost 2 weeks overdue. yesterday i did not head down to work cause partly i woke up late and next i was a lil tired. so.... i told myself... "farhan, get your lazy ass off the bed and get infront of the lappy and stary typing." and i did just that. i spent my afternoon compiling my report.
all work and no play makes hanhan a dull boy.... so, in the evening at about 7 i got ready to head down to ritz. basically to rest my mind. next to meet my baby girl and pass her the basic theory book she needed. then... finally ofcoz sent her home. i guess every minute that i spend with her is precious.... i just love her presence.
so.... when i got back at about 12. i was so tempted to go to bed. but... nope.... i pushed on and at about 2am i completed my report. i could really feel that sense of satisfaction.
but then again..... this is not the end. i'm left with one month b4 i graduate. some ppl may think its a gd thing but not me. for me it only means that i have 1 month left to complete all outstanding task. such as final report, final presentation, 2 QSM project, QSM final test. hmmmmm... and all i have is ONE MONTH = 4 WEEKS = 31 DAYS! omg! stress!!
i guess i have to do some sacrifice to achieve whatever that i have to. sacrifice means.... work more and cut down on play. just for one month b4 i gain my freedom. aft that i have all the time to play and enjoy!
so dear.... i hope you understand. i may not be able to spend much time with u for this one month. i'll try my best whenever i can to see you. i'll definately miss you and there's no doubt about it. do take care. anything i'm just a phone call away. after 1st feb i'm all yours! haha!
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