Monday, October 29, 2007

My whole body is screwed

well... as i'm typing this, i'm coughing once every 20 seconds average. and this time the cough seems different... its like as if there is something stucked there. plus.... every after every cough i'll be out of breath. and then.... occasionally, i'll vomit liquid, blood and phlegm out.

i'm kinda sure this is not any normal cough. its already been about a month and still no cure. its really getting worse. and its really scaring the hell out of me. why am i having so many problems with my body?? visits to the doctor is becoming a norm for me now. and the feeling really sucks. i just feel so useless.

i've got so many scary thoughts running thru my mind.... cancer??? tuberculosis??? i still wanna live a healthy life. please dont let all of these happen to me.

and finally, i really doubt my parents care. and i have a very good feeling i have to pay for the treatment. where am i suppose to find the money?? thanks alot.....so much for being a parent.

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