Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Get high and leave your worries behind

alright... i guess this week has been a decent one i shall say. work, baracuda, driving and at the end of all that a well deserved rest. but still.... the resting part is still kinda lacking. wondering why? but well.... i guess i'll just have to endure.

issues at home... i guess its still the same old story. i'm living my own life. what is parents to me? its definately not in my dictionary. well, u can call me an unfilial son... but, you don't know the real truth. i wash my clothes, fold my clothes, find my own food, clean my room.... practically, i'm living off my ownself. hmmmmm... i guess this practically explains why my whole life is pretty much messed up.

money matters... i guess i pretty much have it in hand already. no more splurging. i'm kinda saving from whatever i get each day. and that could range between $2 to $5. not bad for a start... but still... i'm waiting for my pay to settle my outstanding bill. well.... seems like i have to cut down on my 'fancy' lifestyle. hmmmm..... i will survive.

as for my driving... its going very well. but... sadly my last lesson would be on thursday. well, thats untill i find enough money to book for the next few lessons. and i'm very sure that long gap inbetween will have a negative effect. i can just hope its not so bad. hmmmmm... most likely i'll be going on to the roads once my PDL is secured. circuit is getting boring. my last instructor said my driving was firm and is very much ready for the roads. haha! encouraging indeed. so... you drivers out there, Farhan is gonna storm the roads of Eunos soon. Be prepared. lol!

hmmmm.... recently i got news that kinda affected me to an extent. and its not the best of news. i came to learn that zin thet was hospitalized. i was shocked together with some mixed feelings of worry and guilt. well, just a rough background, i havent been talking to zin thet for about a few weeks. as usual she kinda just disappeared just like that. and before that, i already could sense that there was something troubling her. i guess stuff between she and her father, work, school, friends and etc. and... i did offer my help. i did lend a listening ear and gave my advice. but... i knew she didnt truly open up to me. instead she kept it all inside of her. and i guess... all that lead to the situation now. hmmmm.... well, thats the past and there's nothing that we can do now. but... instead i believe we can always work on the future.

once i heard of the news i very much wanted to visit her but.... as per her friend, i was not suppose to know and its better that i dont visit her yet. hmmmm.... that certainly shows the stubborn part of zin thet. well, i did told her friend to send her my regards and best wishes. and also perhaps if i could come down and visit her soon. i just need to see her to know whats happening. i hate seeing my friends suffer. that girl needs help.... and i wanna offer her mine.

and finally, to end this off....
after having all these worries in my mind... sometimes i feel that you've got to let loose and brush them aside. like what the title states, "Get high and leave your worries behind." it's so true.... sometimes its no point brooding over it. but then again.... get high doesnt mean you have to do drugs or stuff like that. what i mean here is just enjoy yourself. for me... i get high with music. and i'm lucky i have my band to get high with. like yesterday during practice... i just decided to let go of everything and groove and go crazy. and it certainly makes me happy seeing smiles on other ppls faces. takes my mind of the evil worries i have.

i shall end with.... "IF LIFE GETS HARD, FUCK IT! AND YOU'LL FIND PLEASURE."
sorry for the usage of inappropriate language here... but i feel it really explains well.

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