Saturday, August 15, 2009

Isit gonna be better this way?

my volcano erupted the whole of yesterday.
i couldnt control myself.
anger filled me up.
i guess thats what happens when you pent up all your feelings inside for months.

i think i'm going back to my old screwed up self.
living my days in frustration, misery, emo-ing

i just feel so broken up inside.

i think my life is gonna be a wrecked.
i'm gonna give up on everything.

i feel so fucked up!!
why?

i'm still not satisfied after letting my anger out on others. i know its unfair but... i cant help but care.

i still got so much more inside.


right now... i just feel like drinking tons of beer and alcohol, then getting pills and get high. i need to numb myself from this pain i feel.
i think i'm gonna smoke my lungs till it burn tmr.
thats a start.



paracetamol is my new company.

10:33 PM